Hello Sunshines! If you're here reading this because of my previous post, thank you for following up! If you missed the previous post and don't know that I am currently sitting in Hermosa Beach, LA chasing a dream on a very spontaneous whim! Then feel free to scroll down and catch up before reading this.. Otherwise, here's what the first few hours in LA have taught me...
From previous trips I've planned and taken, whether it be camping 20 minutes away from home or adventuring 12 hours across the globe, I've learnt that there is always a certain amount of expectation accompanying them.
The expectation is somewhat unavoidable as it's the sister of excitement and what good is an adventure without excitement??
My fear of expectation has always been that the more of it I have, the higher my disappointment... What a heartbreaking thing to actually admit!? Imagine a life avoiding excitement and expectation purely to guard yourself against disappointment? Although this is completely normal, and many people experience the pain of expectation which subsequently forces us all to avoid it all together, doesn't make it right!
At the beginning of the week, I was telling a friend that "I'm trying not to expect too much from this trip", and I was just planning on going with "no plans" and let life unfold as it wishes in order to avoid potential disappointment... This was obviously a lie, as my excitement was blatant! However, the adult way of thinking, and my head-thoughts were telling my childish heart-thoughts to pipe down!
While on my 11-hour flight, I carried on reading the book which I started before deadlines, Love Does by Bob Goff. (A friend from home recommended it and now I'm recommending pretty much EVERYONE I see to read it too!) Anyway, in between all the brilliant things Goff shares with us in his book, he mentioned a quote by C.S Lewis which I've already quoted in yesterday's post, but can confidently confirm as I witnessed it all come to life before 9 am on my first morning of this wild adventure.
Here's the quote again,
“It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered to us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday by the sea. We are far too easily pleased.”
Here's how this morning played out for me...
I woke up at 4am LA time. It was dark and the other girls in my hostel room had only just gone to bed, so I doubt they'd be happy to wake up from a clumsy and noisy when getting ready Ashleigh. I waited a respectable while for an appropriate time to get up, basically the minute the sun had risen. Once the commotion of getting showered and dressed was over, I grabbed my backpack and penny board and skated on a very empty boardwalk, enjoying how the morning sun was beaming on a very still beach. A couple dog walkers and very determined lady-squad brisk walkers passed me by, but other than that, it seemed liked the most peaceful and quiet part of the world.
(Another disclaimer is that I've had my penny board since my first year at uni, desperately hoping for opportunities to use it and become a pro skater, jokes lol kidding, but seriously, I've only ever skated a handful of times due to insecurities and the fear of being "that girl" always got the better of me. This morning there was no fear. I smiled and maneuvered my way down the boardwalk in true kook style, and nothing ever felt so good.
After stopping to embrace a children's swing set and take a few pictures of the sea, I kept going until I came across a pier which was situated in the ideal spot to observe the locals embrace a glorious morning surf. Writing, reading, watching and just sitting completely in awe of what was unfolding around me. A moment so simple and far beyond my wildest expectation of what my first morning here would look like... Did I mention this was all before 9am?
It's now 10am and I'm finally ready to get stuck in to some breakfast, but before I go, these perfect moments don't just happen on a beach in California, expect them and prepare for them because they are waiting for us everywhere!
So here's to a day full of expectation-smashing-adventure, for everyone, everywhere!
ExpectMay you never lose your wander!